it’s been a while…

wow. ok. so sorry.  i kind of forgot about this.  i got preoccupied with reading other blogs and doing other things.  it also helps that i spend a significant of time NOT online now because a) i gave up facebook for lent and 2) i now have a blackberry so i just check my email on there.  anyway, so time has definitely passed since i last udpated.  i guess there isn’t too much of a difference of what has happened.  some significant, if you could call it that, things that happened are:

- a and i got into our very first fight.  i realized i must be more tactful when i’m being honest.  i also learned how incredibly insecure h and n have left me when those friendships dissolved.

- we painted our main living space blue and hung up a ginormous picture of the eiffel tower. (not big news, i know.  but i’m excited to have any decor in that room, and it looks so comfy and inviting now.)

- i have resolved to this odd sense of self at work.  i do my job and i try to do it well.  i keep telling myself that i work for the Lord and not for me or anyone.  yet, i feel completely severed in some ways from what’s going on and i realize that the only sense of isolation i am feeling is one that i have thrust upon myself, which, oddly enough, only makes me distance myself even more and convince myself more how “alone” i am.

- i realize that i go through these “depressive” moments in my life when i am not doing either of the following: a) working out and/or b) going to church and/or 3) volunteering.  so i really need to jump on this bandwagon.

- i really need to do my taxes – still haven’t done them  yet.

- i’m pretending i have money and been spending it on clothing i do not need but want and taxis to get me from point a to point b instead of taking the subway and yea… i’m definitely not a baller.

- jamie is back from paris. hooray. i heart her.

- i’ve actually gone on a date!  a legit date!  it went well.  we’re complete opposites though, but i’m fine because at the very least i’ll have gained a friend.

- i’ve had lots of boys in my life lately that i have crushes on!  about time!

i don’t know what else.  i will try and make a point of blogging more often, although my life isn’t exceptionally interesting, nor are my comments witty, but it’s kind of nice to have something out there and being able to get things off your chest, irregardless if people read about it and/or like it, right?

ok, that is all for now.  signing off.